2012: People everywhere are saying that they can't wait for this crappy year to end, that it wasn't a good year, that a lot of wrongs happened. But you do know that you need to work on yourselves rather than just blame it all on the year. I hope you don't think that magically everything will fall into place come 1st Jan of any year. If you don't work for it, you'll just drag all the negativity to the next year. You shouldn't really end your year on a bad note.
2012: A year of challenges, fun and breakdowns.
1) I patched up with an old strayed friend. No one had to apologize. We just started talking and picked up from where we left off. Went for bike rides, saw serene nature, the beaches, got drunk, acted stupid and most importantly, kept in touch ever since. We had not spoken for a good number of years. Both waited for the other to take the first step. I took it, and I'm glad I did. Learnt that you too can speak first!!!
Also met new people, handled the worst of pressures at work and maintained certain relations. A few customers still call me till date and just stay in touch. Its a warm feeling.
2) Strength doesnt always wrap itself in a pretty box. Its something you realise with time and instances. Realised I have a strong friend. The one who'd probably stick with me at my worst times. One who loves me, and is more than happy to just be by my side. She's a replica of someone I had known and chose to let go off my life. The small little moments we've had were romantic. Couldn't culminate into something great, but maybe because what we already share is indeed already great.
3) Fell in love.. like I've never before. Like always, I either fall in love with the wrong girl, or fall in love with the right one at the wrong time. You tend to wonder... if life is short, should we really think about what lies ahead? Shouldnt we just live in the moment and be in love? or should we just hide what we really feel and hold back? Never learnt to hold back.. Never going to learn to hold back either. Its a pity. Ive seen people in love, expressing their love to their friends and not to the person they really really love. If two people are in love, they deserve to be loved!!!
It has been a challenging few weeks, but i cannot let 2012 take blame for it. I think of the positives and reassure that much more is to come, that there will be a time, when love wont be hard, where friends wont be difficult, when family is just as perfect as it is. But as this year goes by, it has made me realise that im still human.. Cus it made me laugh, cry, breakdown, shocked and surprised, and it got me in touch with myself in many ways again.
